27/02/26 20:24pm
This week has been fun! It's also been... Interesting? But not in a bad way. It's certainly been tiring and kinda strange in some ways, but I think that is a good thing. My dreams have been particularly vivid recently. Some make me feel really weird when I wake up, and so I'll go back to sleep because I don't want to face the emotions that are clearly trying to process in the back of my mind. I'm just glad they're processing.
I have noticed I am holding significantly more stress than I would like. I have a position of responsbility, leading a team and delivering this film, as well as another personal module at uni. This would be fine if I lived to work, didn't have chronic pain and didn't have any hobbies, but unfortunately I am always fatigued and have no time to do things for fun. I am counting down the weeks until this is all over. Don't get me wrong, I am really enjoying my time here, and I know I'll look back on it very fondly! But I am looking forward to graduating and moving out of here. I cannot wait to be able to draw for myself again, to sew things for fun, and to see my best friend more than three times a year. I miss her so much my heart aches. It was her birthday yesterday and she's coming over at the weekend dfhgrbhh I'm so excited to make her feel special.
Nina, if you're reading this... I love you so much :')))
25/02/26 09:48am
Day 2 of being on set :P In the green room rn and will be waiting for an unknown amount of time. I'm so sleepy augghh. I've been told we'll be done by midday. In the meantime, I will be doin more uni work on this laptop. I'll update later with how my day goes.
13:16pm
When we were called in, the first AD (assistant director) hastily announced that there was only 10 minutes left to shoot the scene. It ended up taking more like 25 minutes and I couldn't help but find it hilarious watching the AD and the DoP (director of photography, who was up on a mezzanine with a big camera) get super stressed out and shout at eachother :P the AD was getting progressively more stressed about how behind schedule everyone was. The main actor was really professional and it was super kewl seeing him go into a perfect American accent and then back into his usual style of speaking. He's playing a talk show host guy (also can I just say. the costume design is VERY nice. woag. he looked rlly good......). Anyway, after take 3, the AD said "that's it. No more. We're done." and so me and the other extras got ready to leave, but then the actor asked the director and DoP up on the mezzanine if they actually got the shot they wanted, and they just shrugged. They then announced we would be doing ONE last take, to the AD's dismay. Luckily, the 4th and final take was the best one, and everyone was satisfied in the end.
I wish I could have stayed longer or been in more scenes. It was SO interesting watching how this all plays out, and I really relate to the whole team with the stress and hecticness of production :p. I'm really keen to see if I can be an extra in something in the future. My sister has been doing it for a decade, so who knows? I could ask her... hrmm..
now it is time for me to embark on a magical journey to The Range, where I will purchase upholstery foam of an adequate thickness.
24/02/26 21:31pm
Today I was an extra on one of the student films at my uni! It was a super fun and insightful experience and it felt so cool to be involved in a live-action film :D I am also working on a grad film, but it's animated, and while there are some very strong similarities between the production pipelines, live action films with real actors have SO much happening on set at any given time, it's crazy.
There was a lot of waiting around at first, but it was nice to chat to the other extras I'd be spending the day with. I already knew one of them, but the rest were a mishmash of some people from uni, and some randoms who found the calling on Facebook the night before lol. It was so coool
My role didn't involve any speaking or action, I literally just had to sit in a crowd and awkwardly react to the aftermath of a talk show that had gone very wrong. Also, the main character was played by a professional actor that the students hired with their fundraised money, and I thought that was pretty freakin epic ngl it would be awesome if the animation students like myself were allowed to fundraise so we can pay our composers and VAs properly -_- but oh well lol, UK universities are bankrupt af at the minute.
I'm going to scavenge for more random bits and pieces I can put on my splash page now!
p.s. I added a guestbook. Go and leave me a cute little message please I'll love you forever
22/02/26 14:19pm
I'm really enjoying goofing around with CSS and seeing my bare-bones webpages slowly change and improve! It's nice to take something really slowly. It's so much more rewarding to spend time solving a problem and finally getting that feeling of satisfaction after fixing something. I'm finding this really theraputic and a nice change of pace from the stuff I've been doing at uni. Alas, tomorrow is Monday and I will need to "lock the fuck in" as people say.
21/02/26 21:00pm
Today really sucked to the point where it was almost comedic. I had to travel 2 hours to pick up my meds; they weren't available anywhere else. I cried for a large portion of the bus journey (I'll spare you the details lol but i I've been going through it recently) and I listened to my favourite songs from Emerald Forest and the Blackbird (2012) by Swallow the Sun. that album is kinda an exploration of the transition between life and death.
Anyway i showed up to the pharmacy and they asked for ID (which i forgot to bring) and just instantly broke down sobbing. i went and sat down in the corner. i feel pretty bad for the 2 ladies at the desk because they were just trying to do their job. Luckily they let me use a photo of my ID, and i was able to get my medication. i wish i could apologise to them for breaking down crying
then i went to the john lewis cafe next door and had a bagel and a huge piece of cake lol
19/02/26 19:29pm
it's so loud in the studio, i get so startled... people laugh SO loudly. i'm glad they're having fun but aaaa i have autism
18/02/26 21:33pm
woohoo I've started my website! i've wanted to do this for so many years. when i was a kid (like 9 or 10) i made so many sites on webnode, and the now defunct webs dot com. that was back in like... 2011-2012 o_O. anywho, i am in my final year of a really insanely busy animation degree and i have almost no spare time, but i'm going to try and update this as much as I can! i can make it relevant by putting my art here and stuff. i need to put my laundry away now byeee